Marriage is not easy.
Anyone that says that it is-is either full of shit, or a doormat.
I say that with love.
I am an independent woman, always have been. I am the oldest of 6 children, and I was trained to be a mother from the birth of the second.
My husband, God Bless his heart, is the youngest of 3. All 5 years apart. He was trained to be loved, and to be taken care of.
Look at that coincidence.
I was trained to take-care-of, and he was trained to be taken-care-of.
This is a common recipe for co-dependency disaster.
And it could have easily went that direction. Still could, I suppose.
There is something that is very hard for me to focus on.
That first I must give Christ ALL my love, foremost, He must receive it all in order for my love for Drew to be fulfilling and wonderful.
Huh? This kind of sucks, because I want to give Drew ALL of myself, because he deserves it, because he is my husband, right?
I also think that if Christ gets all my love, I’ll be different.
I think things like-
“UGH, how much time does Christ need?” “I don’t WANT to give up wordly things, I like wordly things” “I’ll lose who I am, I won’t be ‘Hannah’ anymore, I’ll be some religious woman walking around wearing a rosary and shouting ‘Jesus Loves your Sweet Soul’ ”
Psalm 139:13 says this:
“For you created my inmost parts, you knitted me together in my mother’s womb”
This says to me:
He planned me.
Knitting takes time, it takes skill. He took TIME on me. He took TIME thinking about the way I would look, and the way I would speak. He made me exactly the way He imagined me, and in His eyes, I am Perfect.
As much as Drew loves me, or Cade loves me, or Porter loves me, nothing will compare to Christ’s love for me. Nothing. He loves me through all circumstances, without boundaries. It is truly an un-ending love, I think. I can’t even close to comprehend that.
That’s why He should get you first, Hannah.
That’s why, you need to be quiet and love Him back.
That’s why your marriage will never fully thrive if you aren’t talking to The Pops Upstairs.
+ when I begin to work on that Love. The one that is actually written with a period because it is CONFIDENT, and it is True, and it is NEVER CEASING, my marriage with Drew will grow.
It’s like bumpy marriages are ones that are thirsty.
And feeding them, makes the road so much smoother.
I know, quick to the point, and kinda of a rough but necessary subject.
Seek Him, and then seek him,
see what I’m saying?
Happy Marriage
xo
H
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